Oh no I won't be crying and won't be sad but if and only if YOU STAY ! I mean it

, it is really hard to just let go off the things that mattered , things which were meaningful but than I now I did , because I just trusted you with myself ! I don't know you , like not even 15% but it is just that whenever you are around I am this totally different person thousand times happier and more alive. Life seems to get better as days pass by! and you know you mean the world to me and trust me I ain't afraid to tell that to the world but I am afraid to tell you about that because I don't know how you'll take it. I am much more happier than I was before and I can see the positive changes in my life , I do get lost in thoughts about you and forget the world around me for a while but hell yeah who cares if it makes me feel happy! You tell me to stay happy and hey you know what? My happiness is you , the reason behind my smile , the reason I am blushing all the time when talking to you or about you , you are the one with whom I talk like 15-17 hours but I just don't get tired and I just don't want you to leave not even for the sleep ! I just wish you were mine because I don't have you totally but I don't even mind having you this much as well because this much has given me thousand beautiful , oh so beautiful that I just cannot explain it but I am just thinking that I am so happy and what if my happiness is taken away from me ? what if you leave ? what if I die ? This thought gives me chills because in just few finite days I am so close and attached to you , you have given me so many memories , and so much to remember that I think for the first time I am praying to God to give me life not take it from me and give you a long life and we stay together so maybe I can than stay happy I know I sound so selfish but i just got this happiness after such a long time that I just don't want it to be taken away from me or else I'll break I swear I'll break again and than would be left in complete darkness because you just don't realize that you mean the world to me ab! I started dreaming , imagining and planning my life with you and this is unusual in my case because I never like never EVER imagined so much with someone :') I just love you and I am falling for you and Phew! I just admitted it , I ain't sure but this feeling I have for you but it just leaves me breath-less and every single time I think about you I have that stupid smile and I get all pink and start blushing ! And this never even happened until now! Promise me you'll stay and I promise to give you reasons to stay! Don't ever like ever leave , even if we don't talk much , even if we don't talk for hours like we do now but trust me after going through so much I know how to respect feelings and I know the pain , that pain of being miserable,left alone, broken and shattered! I had a past and I regret it but trust me on this that I won't leave or back out , I am and always will be there to share your happiness and sadness and give you support and won't leave you ever I swear!Even if you push me away and get angry or whatever I just won't ever go I don't know it , I just ain't sure that is this love or what but it ain't a crush for sure because for me now I have grown enough mentally that I can at least tell when I am in love or not and  I won't name this relationship or feelings as something inferior and temporary such as a crush !